Have Faith In Your Dreams And Someday Your Rainbow Will Come Smiling Thru

Hello Everyone,

The past few weeks of my hectic life have been somewhat of a blur, mostly because I have just been trying to zone them all out, and because my body thinks it's funny when it doesn't sleep. Well, this morning, I received a phone call that cleared everything up, somewhat like that allergy medicine, Claritin (you guys know the commercial - Claritin Clear!). This particular phone call has already changed my life for forever. Buddy, you may want to wipe all that drool from your face. I know you're excited and everything, but that slobber my fall and fry your keyboard, and I just don't want that to happen.

This morning was like any other morning: I turned three of my four alarm clocks off, resulting in me sleeping a wee bit later than I needed to. After finally throwing myself out of bed and questioning the time on why it passes by so quickly when I close my eyes, I splashed water on my face, then ran downstairs to make me a big bowl of cereal before I put on my war paint for work. Just a little fun fact - trying to walk back up the stairs with a huge bowl of milk and Honey Comb cereal is never a good idea for anyone out there who finds walking to be a challenge, like I do. Thankfully, I decided to get a huge bowl of cereal, so I still had half of the amount left in the bowl for me to eat once I made it back to my room.

While sitting on the ground next to my bed and eating (and spilling) my now small breakfast, my mind trailed back to the three phone conversations that I had the night before. Recently, I have been feeling beyond lost in this ever-expanding world. Being so far away from all of my best friends has left this empty, bitter feeling in my stomach and I haven't found a way to get rid of it - I tried eating it away because I just kept telling myself "oh girl, you must be hungry". Nope - that all went straight to my thunder thighs. I didn't know what the problem was until my mind trailed back to a few weeks ago when I went home. That week, I realized that the strong relationship I had with my friends had deteriorated with time. Everyone always told us, "after graduation, you all will hardly ever hear from eachother again. Each of your lives will lead separate paths and in separate directions." That same day, I looked over at my best friend and we both smiled, knowing that nothing could ever come between us. This morning, I looked in my mirror as I was about to rub mosturizer on my face, realizing that something actually had: life. We all are doing our own things this summer...kinda like the girls from the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. That's actually kinda funny because we modeled our graduation picture after the one from their second movie. I know, I know...very creative.



If you think this is a mess, you should've seen all of us that day.
We were all jumping on eachothers backs...in dresses...at a church.
You gotta miss the good ole days.





After many tries, this is what we ended up with.
A picture has a thousand words, but the one that always comes to my mind when I see this is:
Perfection.



Quickly, I brought myself out of this deep thought process and realized I had to be at work in ten minutes, and I was still wearing my jammies and only had makeup on one eye. I jumped up, threw on everything, stopped and said a quick prayer hoping that I didn't look like a mess, then RAN to my car. If you were wondering how I made it down the stairs this time while running, just know that miracles really do happen. You will truly believe this when I get to the big show.

After blasting my Band Perry C.D. and singing at the top of my lungs the entire way to work, I finally made it to the parking deck; I sat there for a few minutes trying to gather my life before forcing a smile on my face until 5 p.m. I grabbed my hott pink bag and headed for the place that I have recently been referring to as my "new home". Luckily, I made it across the street without being ran over...thanks to my hott pink bag.

I walked inside the Action Card office and went straight up to the front desk where Mrs. Amy was sitting. Me and Mrs. Amy get along perfectly - we only really talk when 1) a customer comes up and fusses at us about a parking ticket - (this is my favorite because we have nothing to do with parking), or when I make a loud grumble while shopping online because I know that the skirt the size-0 model is wearing won't look anything like that on me. Well, right as I sat down, I received a text message from a person that I hadn't talked to since I had my wisdom teeth removed. Here was our conversation:

Lisa Locklier: "I have exciting news 4 u! U have a Guardian Angel! I would like 2 know when we can talk later today. Give me a time 4 later in the day."

I re-read this text message more times than I have fingers on my hands. I am the type of person who over analyzes something before realizing to do the obvious: reply back.

Me: "I get off at five but I don't know if I can wait until then."

Before I could lock my phone, she had already responded "Can I call u now?"

I looked in the back to see how many people were back there trying to get Action Cards made - there was a total of zero. I quickly grabbed my phone, told Mrs. Amy that I had to make a quick phone call, then ran out the door before anyone could ask me to do something for them. I stood outside for a few minutes, then I finally received the phone call I had been waiting for.

Mrs. Locklier: "Hey Haley! How are you doing?"

Me: "I am doing good. How are you, Mrs. Lock?"

Mrs. Locklier: "I have been doing alright. I am up here at the hospital. My father just got out of surgery, so it may get a little loud or the phone may cutt off. BUT - I have something really important I have to tell you. You have a Guardian Angel. This person knew both of your parents very very well, and well, they basically want to help you pay for school."

Right at this moment, she told me the amount and I started crying in front of a hundred strangers. For those of you who don't know me very well, I hate people seeing me cry...absolutely hate it. If I have cried in front of you before, that should feel like an honor, and a curse, because, well, I have a really ugly crying face- I am really sorry about that. I wasn't thinking about my ugly crying face, or the fact that I forgot to wear waterproof mascara...all I was thinking about was the miracles that God has under his sleeves. Here is your perfect example that everything really is going to be alright, so don't waste your time worrying, like me. The only thing that's going to come from that is hair loss - I watch mine wash down the drain every night when I take a shower.

Dear Guardian Angel,

You have changed my life, and I know that I most likely know you, but I was told to pretend like I don't. Is it to early in our relationship to tell you that I love you? I really mean that. You are a blessing. If our paths someday cross in the future, I hope that I could atleast give you a formal thank you, and the biggest hug that anyone has ever recieved in their whole life. Saying thank you will never be enough. Just know that you have re-lit the fire under my hiney, which has made me want to search for my way in this world again. At this current moment, I am unsure what I am going to have a degree in when I graduate, so just know that when you come to my graduation, it will be a surprise to the both of us. Once again, thank you for reminding me that dreams really do come true.
Love, Haley

"A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep.
In dreams you lose your heartaches;
Whatever you wish for, you keep.
Have faith in your dreams and someday,
Your rainbow will come smiling thru.
No matter how your heart is grieving.
If you keep on believing,
the dream that you wish will come true."
-Cinderella

Today, all of my worries and stresses have been washed away. Now, my heart is full of happiness and Disney songs. :) Happy Tuesday to you all. Oh yeah - do me a favor? Text your friends...tell them you love them. Even if they don't respond, just know that it will brighten their day.

Love always,
Haley

"Like a bolt out of the blue,
Fate steps in and sees you through.
When you wish upon a star,
Your dreams come true."
When You Wish Upon a Star - Disney