"They Say You Know When You Know...Well I Don't Know"

Well,

I promised I would come back and tell you about mine and Tyler's discussion. Before I get that far, I am going to need to back up a little.

Have you ever met someone that just makes you actually forget to breathe (besides Enrique Iglesias)? For the first time in my life, I actually met someone who did that to me. For drama purposes, lets just call him Delicious. :)

He is teasing us...:)

Well, I was hanging out with Delicious one day, and I was just so nervous; my palms were sweating and I wasn't speaking correct English. It got even worse when he started holding my hand, my grammar got worse, that is. Well, when it came time to leave, I decided to "unknowingly" leave my scarf there to see if he noticed...he did :). For the past week, we have been teasing each other about my scarf, saying things like how he was going to keep it. I felt like I was in Middle School, again. You know, wishing you would see him in the hallway or just catch a glimpse of him down the street. Well, have you ever just had that gut feeling that something was too good to be true? That is exactly what this story is to me.

Saturday night was the first time that I had seen him since we all left for Thanksgiving. For the first two days of my break, I was so excited that I couldn't stand it - I was in that "dreamy" phase. Yesterday, I was a little bummed out because I found out a lot of things about him. Even though he was incredibly sweet to me Saturday, I just had this feeling that he didn't really care about me at all. I know The Maine keeps telling me "Don't listen to the voices in your head, listen to your heart", but it's not that easy for me. I have a giant brick wall around my heart. If I actually let you in and tell you secrets and show you my tears, that's a miracle in itself. As females, we all dream about being told we are beautiful, being held like there's no one else in the world, you know, all of that mushy junk. Well once he started telling me all of those things that I wanted to hear, I was sort of hooked. Continuing with Saturday, we were all hanging out and watching music videos. He ended up leaving to take this girl to her car...I decided that would be a good time to leave with Tyler.

On the way home, I was really quiet. Tyler started asking me about this other guy that was sitting next to me most of the night (I was trying to make Delicious jealous). I basically told Tyler not to worry because I don't fall for bull crap anymore. It's just so frustrating - all of my roommates have guys to go places with on the weekends. I guess I just want to experience that one good time during my college career. Well Tyler started telling me about all of his woman problems - oh boy; he started saying things that really stuck, though. For instance - he told me that I can't live my life with someone else before being able to live my life independently - he does speak the truth when he is drunk. Anyways, once Delicious noticed I was gone, he started texting and asking me where I was - hehehe. :) I thought it was a good idea to leave him wishing I had stayed - I am still proud of that decision. 

At this current moment in time, I am just not very sure about our future. I am not saying that I am pushing Delicious aside yet - most of what I know are my assumptions or things his brothers say (you know how boys are). I am saying that every single time he texts me, my heart flutters a little...STILL. He is keeping me on my toes...that's for sure. :)  

This is the song that currently makes me think of him...ahaha :) 

I started remembering a few years ago when a certain friend of mine had a crush on a particular man-whore. :) (you know who you are). We were gonna pull a "John Tucker Must Die" on him. Well, I believe that time has come again. :) Don't you worry - I will keep you informed.

This is currently the only man in my life - Bonar

Have a happy Monday! 

Haley